I have been doing some soul searching. Don’t you think blogging is kind of weird? I’ve been thinking a lot about blogging lately.
Our Pastor had some interesting things to say this week. Was it a coincidence that he spoke to my troubled mind? I guess I don’t think so. Our Pastor talked about human nature a.k.a. sin. He says we can’t escape it.
Our Pastor is a kind, soft-spoken, humble guy. He told us that he feels like he has been called by God into ministry. He said he knows he is using the gifts God gave him to serve others and to serve God. And, he said he also craves human praise.
Exactly. I could’t agree more. I mean, he really does. I’m glad he can finally admit it.
I’m trying to make a serious point. Why can’t I ever stop clowning around?
No. I don’t think our Pastor craves human praise; I think I do. And THAT is really starting to get on my nerves. And, so is all this bold print I keep using.
Humble people are my favorite. Seriously. I just love them. I married one of the humblest people I know. And, I think it is only fitting that I brag about it. I’m just attracted to humility. It’s so magnetic.
I think about all the super awesome people I know, who have super awesome lives, and I’m wondering this: Why the heck haven’t they started a blog? Because they weren’t born a fool, I guess.
I know a lot of fantastic people who don’t like/need/want attention. I want to be like those people. Blogging probably isn’t going to get me there.
This stuff is the bane of my existence right now. I am confident that I’m in my sweet spot when I’m writing and making jokes. I feel like God meant me to use this thing I like so much. But, my motives are NOT pure. When someone shares one of my posts with their friends, or sends me an encouraging word, I’m just like a puppy. My tail starts wagging, and I’m eager for more. I’m not very evolved.
I don’t know how to escape this. I thought a good start would be to follow my Pastor’s lead: tell the truth. So, there it is. That’s the truth. I’m going to pray for myself on this one, and ask for insight. I’ll let you know what I hear.
You know who should have a blog? Rod and Jane Spillane. What? You haven’t heard of them? That’s surprising. They’re famous at our house.
Rod and Jane have been married a long time. Rod is our Youth Pastor. Jane is Rod’s wife. She is a music teacher and Rod’s helper in all things. A long time ago, Eddie made up nicknames for these two beautiful people: “Pope Rod” and “Hall-of-Fame-Jane”. Eddie always makes up nicknames for people he loves.
You know that song, “I get knocked down, but I get up again. Never going to keep me down…”? That could be the Spillane’s theme song. They’ve had some rows with life, but they are faithful, humble servants, and they just keep pressing on…I love them.
When Eddie was home bound and barely able to get out of bed, he didn’t feel very social. Eddie had no interest in seeing anyone other than his family. I can’t exactly know why. My guess is that it takes too much energy to pretend you’re not sick. I also think being around healthy people just adds insult to injury for sick folks. They wonder why it is so easy for other people to feel so good, and why they can’t.
During those long, sick winters, there was one person who wouldn’t take no for an answer from Eddie. That person was Rod. For a couple of years, I would have told you that Rod (30 years Eddie’s senior) was Eddie’s best friend. Rod would come to the house almost every week and hang out with Eddie. They would goof around, make jokes and Rod would try to remind Eddie to keep hoping. It helped. It helped so much.
Pope Rod and Hall-of-Fame-Jane do not blog, and they do not want attention. But, that’s just too bad, because my heart is full and I want you to know how much I love them. The other night they had the kids put together Christmas gifts for kids in impoverished countries. It was fun:
The kids all went out and bought things they thought other kids may enjoy receiving. Here’s the loot:
Then, somehow Pope and Hall of Fame managed to get these teenagers to wrap all these gifts, and write letters to these kids across the world who these teenagers did not know:
This weekend, Hall of Fame Jane and Pope Rod are taking Zeke and the other youth group kids to Chicago. They’re going to clean for, feed and serve folks who are having a rough time of things. Hall of Fame and Pope are the type of people who should be blogging. And, if they’re not gonna do it, then I’ll just have to do it for them.
And, finally, I’ve got one more important thing to tell you. Scott said the nicest thing he’s ever said to me last week. He said they made a commercial about me. The commercial came on and he yelled for me to come and see it. He said the last scene especially reminded him of me. Here it is:
I gave Scott a hug, and said, “Really? Because that’s who I think I am too: crazy, dancing lady.” Then, I said, “But you’d probably say my moves are a little better than hers, right?”
And there you have it: how deep introspection has taught me nothing.